me in 2005
After reading one my new faveorite bloggers blog girlsgonechild
After reading about the girl she used to be it made me think of the person I used to be.
I was seventeen when I got pregnant. Still saying that makes me cringe a little. I was a child having a child. Yes I have grown up and become a great mother and role model for my little man.
It is still hard to look at pictures of me before I was a mom. I was so free and wild. My mother worked a lot my father wasn't around so there was little restrictions. I was consistently at parties drinking leaving with random men. I was reckless with my life. I cannot say that I would go back there if I could. I am not sure that I could live that life again. It still is hard to look around and think how did I get from there to here?
I used to be scared when I heard about mothers leaving their families. I was scarred that I would one day break and leave. That was my biggest fear. I am known for being impulsive. I make decisions quick and once I get on a roll I can't quite. Lately I realize that is no longer a fear. I am in this for the long haul. This little man stole my heart.