Wednesday, December 31, 2008


2008 is coming to an end.  I alway get depressed on new years.  It is not that I have regrets of the year past but simply that it is over.  I am very bad with endings.  In remembrance of this past year I am here to discuss the many accomplishment I have made this year.  Tonight is sure to be full of dancing drunkeness so I better get it out of the way before they start pouring the champaign!
This year I have:
-let go of all the expectations other people have of me
-realized that I am a great mother and a fabulous friend
-made it through my first semester at a big university
-learned that I am much more insightful than I ever knew
-changed my major
-kissed my little man seventeen billion times
-learned to let go of the little things and enjoy life as is
-made a budget
-went over budget
-started blogging-
-made it through one of the biggest challenges I had yet faced
-let go of love that was bad for me
-let go of all the people who were brining me down
-lost twenty five pounds! Go me!
-went vegetarian for three weeks
-vegan for three days
-celebrated Aidens second birthday
-met Brett Miachals
-went to my very first concert
-laughed with friends
ok that will do for now.
It has been a good year, next year will only get better. I wish you all a Happy New Year!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Help me out!

What a day it has been! 
If you look closely behind us you will see Aiden's newly cleaned and organized room!
More pictures to come!
Needless to say it was time to take on the challenge. I am not sure what is more sad the fact that I threw out three boxes of toys or the fact that Aiden didn't even notice.
So a lot of changes are coming to my might get exciting
Hold on to your seat!
I would like to do a question and answer section sooo email me at any questions that I can answer.
(make them good)

Monday, December 29, 2008

Happy Monday!

We have been home hanging out all day long!
I think we have played with every Christmas present he got.
(since he was gone all weekend we had to make up for lost time!)
I am still exhausted from Christmas followed by a long weekend which got me thinking today.
Times that I wish I was married when:
-I desperately need a nap
-I return from the store and find out I need dish-soap
-I realize how badly the trash needs taken out
-I have to carry four bags of groceries inside while entertaining a toddler
-I want to take a bath and read a good book
-I am trying to throw out some of this kids toys
-Aiden throws his toys I am throwing out all over his room
ok ok ok 
enough venting
I really do enjoy being a single mom
I enjoy the intimacy I share with my son and the bond we have created
However, I wouldn't mind a nanny?

So it is your turn!
If you are married: I wish I wasn't married when:
If you are single: I wish I was married when:

Lets see what great answers we can get!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

how exciting am I

 I got him to sleep^ Oh yeah I still have it :)

I always find it hard to write on days when Aiden is not here.
He is at his dads for the weekend and quite frankly when he isn't here nothing fun happens.
I mean do you really care what I did with my day?
oh wait its my blog and I can say what I wish
so here we go!
Here is the excitement I experienced today!
Last night I went out with a few friends and didn't get into bed until 4:00 this morning. 
I was up at 8:30 to go to work...where I had to cook
then I came home
oh and I did a load of laundry!
Excitement? Oh I think So!
soooo lets play a game right now.
If you just read this ultra exciting post leave me a comment
tell me what you did on your soggy saturday!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Merry Christmas to all

It is over!
No more hustle bustle. 
No more cookie baking. 
No more present wrapping. 
No more exhausted children.
I am kidding. This was the best Christmas we have had as a family so far. Aiden actually got it this year! He knew Santa was coming and that he left him gifts.  Aiden put the cookies out and hung up his Christmas socks.  It is hard to believe that he will be three soon.  It seems like yesterday I was bringing him home! 
ok...getting teary eyed now.
We had a great Christmas!
I hope all went well with you
tell me about it?

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

oh the places I have been

So it has been three days.  I am not sure my mother is ever leaving.  If there is one thing you should know about me and my mother we are complete opposites.  We have opposite views on everything.  Religion, politics, child rearing.  It is all driving me INSANE.  Despite the fact that this apartment was built for two.  It was almost certainly not built to room a mother of mine and all of her belongings in my living room! I hate to say this but I cannot wait till Christmas is over. It is becoming a little overwhelming.

We decided yesterday was the perfect day for family pictures! Aiden was perfect and smiled and posed like it was his job!  However, I cannot stand sales people or long lines or bad traffic.  It was stressful but oh the pictures turned out beautiful!

On a lighter note...I attended my first drag queen show last night! It was quite the experience. I stayed out way to late and partied way to hard.  Therefore, I spent most of today hovering over the toilet.  I apparently am too old to party anymore.  Hopefully this week gets better. I wish all of you a very merry Christmas!

To my Italian friends:
Buon natale! Tutti me amo!

(I hope that means Merry Christmas! I love you all!)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Holiday Traditions!

We wish you a Merry Christmas, We wish you a Merry Christmas, We wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year!
(that was caroling the 2008 way!)
Now that we have one more Christmas tradition out of the way let me show you what else we accomplished today!
p.s. I am writing this from Aidens "tent" 

Aiden baked cookies for the first time ever>>>>
It was the cutest thing ever! He is going to be such the little baker!

We cuddled up and watched a parade and chowed down on all of our delicious cookies! 
It is beyond cold here and I refuse to leave the house! 

I changed things around a bit on here today!  I am having fun seeing all the fun things I can do! I have a little slideshow of some of my favorite things down at the bottom! I hope to expand that but it is hard to think of favorite things!!

Also feel free to find me on 

Merry Christmas to all and all a good night!
Can I get out of this tent now?

ALSO: I am taking up VLOGGING! 
(Video Blogging)
So keep watch my first vlog  will be up soon!

Friday, December 19, 2008

My new adventure

He put his glove on all by himself! >>>>>

I decided this week I wanted to be a freelance writer. I have spent the past two nights searching for jobs information anything I can find.  (If you have any advice please hand it over)  My friends are laughing and me and my new adventure.

 I have come to terms with the fact that I go through phases.  I was going to start a daycare, sell homewares, open a gift shop, be a weight loss consultant.  There were many more phases that I wont even begin to name.  

My friends swear this blog is a phase.  I believe they have bets over how long it will be until I'm over it. 

Thursday, December 18, 2008

past coming back

me in 2005

After reading one my new faveorite bloggers blog girlsgonechild

After reading about the girl she used to be it made me think of the person I used to be.  

I was seventeen when I got pregnant.  Still saying that makes me cringe a little.  I was a child having a child.  Yes I have grown up and become a great mother and role model for my little man. 

 It is still hard to look at pictures of me before I was a mom.  I was so free and wild.  My mother worked a lot my father wasn't around so there was little restrictions.  I was consistently at parties drinking leaving with random men.  I was reckless with my life.  I cannot say that I would go back there if I could.  I am not sure that I could live that life again.  It still is hard to look around and think how did I get from there to here?  

I used to be scared when I heard about mothers leaving their families.  I was scarred that I would one day break and leave. That was my biggest fear.  I am known for being impulsive.  I make decisions quick and once I get on a roll I can't quite.  Lately I realize that is no longer a fear.  I am in this for the long haul.  This little man stole my heart.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Ring Leader

Sooo I ran across this little drawing the PBN is hosting! They have partnered up with big tent  and are giving away a $250 gift card to Target! Who wouldn't want to win that? So the question they are asking is: What will I being doing in 2009 to make my "circus" easier, better, and just plain more manageable?  I love this question because quite frankly I am not doing the best job at circus leader lately! This circus is a mess! So here is my plan:

1) Consolidate: Get rid of all the things we don't need.  We do not need 12 pairs of shoes or 700 balls rolling around the house.  I want to take all of the things we don't need and give them to Goodwill.
2) Find a place for everything: I am tired of searching around the house for things.  Everything should have a home!
3) Keep a calendar: Lets face it I have to many things going on to not write things down!  I want to start writing in my date book so I don't you know...miss a doctors appointment?
4) Make a system:  I have a desk and a filing cabinet.  I have more storage than any women I why is everything piled on my desk?

That is all I have come up with so far! lets face it I have a long way to come!  Baby steps anyone?

What are you going to do to make your circus run a little smoother?

Friday, December 12, 2008

what to do!

It is eleven o' clock and I just woke up! I am not sure when the last time I slept this late was but it feels nice!  Aiden is at his fathers and I have the entire day off.  I have a list of a million things I should accomplish today but you know what I really want to do?  Sit here and cozy up! Who knows what I will really accomplish today! So far I have written this post!  What are you doing today?

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Wednesday, December 10, 2008


I was forced to go back for a second shopping trip yesterday.  We ended up two hours from home when an ice storm broke out.  We visited with some friends and waited out the snow.  We finally arrived home exhausted and overworked at eleven o'clock last night.  I have two finals today.  I am pretty sure I just failed my first one and am currently preparing for my second now.  However, I do not feel guilty.  It is strange for me not to feel bad.  I feel bad when I'm late, tired, sad, when I  don't get the laundry done, don't do the dishes, forget something at work, don't call someone back.  In other words I feel bad for EVERYTHING.  This week I decided to give it up.  Boycott the guilty feeling.  It is finals week (most stressful week of the semester) Aiden became a big brother (another stressful situation) the christmas tree is up, the presents are bought.  I have given up meat and pop.  I wrote my blog and quite frankly I have little energy left for guilt.  So I gave it up.  I will do what I can no more no less.  If i fail one test so be it.  If I forget one phone call life will go on. It is refreshing.  I am not sure how long it will last, but try if.  You might just enjoy it.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Our big Adventure

I may be the coolest mom alive...or the stupidest
we started our day at the mall...this was as close as he would get to santa...the first time

Next we were off to Chuckee Cheeses....yes he was THIS excited

After the rides and the trip to toys r us we ended our day with a second trip to the mall. Aiden changed his mind.  He wasn't scared of Santa and would not stop crying until I agreed to take him back.  He did shake Santa's hand and all is well.
Except for the fact that I left a store with my purchases still sitting in the tomorrow we are making a second shopping trip.
The joy of holidays!!!!

santa is coming to town

Someone is waiting for Santa Clause....just kidding he was watching the trash man take our trash!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Grandpa Kenny

Aiden just informed me that Grandpa Kenny used to jump out of airplanes and he broke Mary.  Kenny is my father whom Aiden has never met and I have never mention.  It is nice to see my mom is giving him a broad view of his grandfather! 

Saturday, December 6, 2008

so old

I am 21 years old. I am sitting at home on a Saturday night.  Except for Aiden I am alone.  I still am planning what I will be when I grow up.  I still am working on plans for crazy trips I want to take and things I want to do.  I still have the majority of my life left to live.  So why am I so content being here under my blankets watching a movie and writing a blog?  When did I get so old?

Monday, December 1, 2008

we have a winnner

I finally have a winner from our drawing last week! 
Congratulations Lauren from Diva's world
Sorry I havent posted holidays have been crazy! 
Ill have something more exciting to say tommarow!

A few of my favorite things!